Maybe we’re not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we’re thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we’re thankful for the things we’ll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”
“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can’t outrun it and life always makes more.”
“Even now, I believe for the most part, love is about choices. It’s about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending, most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.”
“Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It’s not just a river in Egypt, it’s a freakin’ ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?”
“Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn’t just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do… as long as you choose your moments wisely.”
"Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget."
as human beings, we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. Just when you’ve gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you shifts. It knocks you off your feet. If youre lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound, something a band-aid will cover. But some wounds are deeper than they first appear, and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip of the band-aid, let them breathe and give them time to heal.”
Lying is bad. Or so we are told constantly from birth. Honesty is the best policy, the truth shall set you free, I chopped down the cherry tree. Whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth… the truth freaking hurts.”
We’re all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood, then as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then, we set about the business of fixing whatever we can.”
“People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don’t. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut’s long gone, the pain still lingers.”
“What’s worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should’ve healed years ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.
Mengenai Saya
- ANOTHER SIDE OF ME
- Falling to my world , my life , my love , my pain . without no fear , with all the tears . the bliss
Kamis, 11 Februari 2010
DIBALIK LUKA MEMAR
gelombang kepedihan yg tadi hanya menerpaku kini menerjang tinggi .
Menggulung kepalaku .
Menyeretku kebawah .
Aku tak muncul lagi dipermukaan .
Waktu berlalu .
Bahkan saat rasanya mustahil .
Waktu tetap terus berjalan .
Bagaikan denyut nadi di ' balik luka memar ' .
Waktu seakan berlalu dijalan yang tidak rata,bergejolak dan diseret seret , namun terus berjalan ,bahkan bagiku
Menggulung kepalaku .
Menyeretku kebawah .
Aku tak muncul lagi dipermukaan .
Waktu berlalu .
Bahkan saat rasanya mustahil .
Waktu tetap terus berjalan .
Bagaikan denyut nadi di ' balik luka memar ' .
Waktu seakan berlalu dijalan yang tidak rata,bergejolak dan diseret seret , namun terus berjalan ,bahkan bagiku
GOBBLING SCARS
kepedihan itu akhirnya MUNCUL .
hal ini benar-benar melumpuhkan !
sensasi bawah sebuah lubaang besar MENGANGA didadaku .
merenggut semua organ vitalku .
dan meninggalkan bekas luka yang masih BASAH dan berdarah disekelilingnya .
yang masih tetap BERDENYUT NYERI dan mengeluarkann darah,meski waktu terus berjalan .
aku berusaha menggapai perasaan KELU dan lumpuh .
penyangkalanku,tp perasaan itu meninggalkanku .
meski begitu,kudapati ternyata aku BISA BERTAHAN .
aku sadar,AKU MERASAKAN KEPEDIHAN ITU .
perasaaan KEHILANGAN yg terpancar keluar dr dadaku .
mengirimkan gelombang kesakitan yg menghancurkan ke kaki tangan dan kepalaku .
TAPI SEMUA ITU MASIH BISA KUTAHAN ! .
AKU BISA MELEWATINYA !! .
walaupun rasanya kepedihan itu tidak MELEMAH seiring berjlan nyaa waktu .
TAPI AKU JD SEMAKIN KUAD MENAHANNYA .
untuk pertama kali dalam kurun waktu lama .
aku tidak tahu harus mengharapkan apa esok pagi ?
hal ini benar-benar melumpuhkan !
sensasi bawah sebuah lubaang besar MENGANGA didadaku .
merenggut semua organ vitalku .
dan meninggalkan bekas luka yang masih BASAH dan berdarah disekelilingnya .
yang masih tetap BERDENYUT NYERI dan mengeluarkann darah,meski waktu terus berjalan .
aku berusaha menggapai perasaan KELU dan lumpuh .
penyangkalanku,tp perasaan itu meninggalkanku .
meski begitu,kudapati ternyata aku BISA BERTAHAN .
aku sadar,AKU MERASAKAN KEPEDIHAN ITU .
perasaaan KEHILANGAN yg terpancar keluar dr dadaku .
mengirimkan gelombang kesakitan yg menghancurkan ke kaki tangan dan kepalaku .
TAPI SEMUA ITU MASIH BISA KUTAHAN ! .
AKU BISA MELEWATINYA !! .
walaupun rasanya kepedihan itu tidak MELEMAH seiring berjlan nyaa waktu .
TAPI AKU JD SEMAKIN KUAD MENAHANNYA .
untuk pertama kali dalam kurun waktu lama .
aku tidak tahu harus mengharapkan apa esok pagi ?
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