dibalik semua tawa akan ada luka

pada saat itu

saya tdk bsa menggambarkan seperti apa prasaan saya
sayaa bgitu terkejut

Ayah pergi begitu cepadh

segalanya seperti mimpi

saya sring terdiam sendiri

saya tersadar
ternyata tuhan punya rencana lain

begitu mudahnya ia memberi dan dlm sekejap menariknya kembali


kitaa semua hnya boneka yg diikat dgn tali
tak berdaya mengikuti gerakan jarinya

Banyak
banyak sekali yg terjadi sesudahnya
tapi saya yakin
Ayah bs melihatna dr atas sana
Ayah bsa menyaksikan setiap detik

betapa disaat yg sama

"ia memberi karunia
ia memberi kekuatan luar biasa bagi saya untuk trus btahan didalam arena permainannya

tapi saya belajar ayah
semua yg ia berikan saat ini sifatna sementara
kapan saja ia bs menariknya kembali
saya tak mau tertatih lgi
saya hrs menutup hati
dan tak begitu saja gembira dgn hadiah hadiah yg diberikan-NYA

saya tau
di balik semua tawa akan ada luka
setiap pertemuan akan ada perpisahan
saia tak mau menerima yg pertama
saiia hrs siap dgn kemungkinan yg ke 2
saia akan membuka hati saya untuk yg terluka saja

old wounds

What do u prefer ?
Luka bru yg menyakitkan .
Ato .
Luka lama yg tak kunjung smbuh ?
Well .
Luka lama mengajarkan sesuatu pada kta .
Berulang ulang .
Agar kta tak mendptkan luka bru lg .
Tp knyataana tak seperti itu kan ?


most of our wounds heal ,
leaving nothing behind .
kecuali bekas LUKA .
but some of them don't

ato luka lama yg seharus nya sembuh bertahun tahun,tp tak kunjung sembuh .

maybe our wounds teached us something .
they remind us .
where we've been .
and what we OVER COME .

MEREKA MENGAJARKAN APA YG HARUS KITA HINDARI DI MASA DEPAN .

that's the way we are to think .
BUT THATS NOT THE WAY IT IS , isn't it ?

FORGIVE AND FORGET !!

we like to think that we are rational beings .
humane. conscientious. civilized. thoughtful .
but when things fall apart
even just a little ,
it becomes clear,
we’re no better than animals
we have opposable thumbs, we think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream
but deep down
were all still bruiting around in the primordial ooze.
biting, clawing, scratching out in existence in the cold dark world like the rest of the tree toads and sloths

forgive and forget,
that's what they say.
It's good advice but its not very practical.
when someone hurts us we want to hurt them back.
when someone wrongs us we want to be right.
without forgiveness old scores are never settled,
old wounds never heal,
and the mose we can hope for is that one day we will be lucky enought to forget .

In life only one thing is certain apart from death and taxes
no matter how hard you try,
no matter how good your intentions,
your going to make mistakes.
your going to hurt people,
your going to get hurt,
and if you ever want to recover theres really only one thing you can say
"I forgive you"

the truth is painful,
deep down nobody wants to hear it especially when it hits close to home.
Sometimes we tell the truth,
because the truth is all we have to give.
sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it outloud to really hear it for ourselves.
and sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves.
and sometimes we tell them because we owe them atleast that much

the thing about addiction is never ends well.
because eventually whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good,
and starts to hurt.
still,
they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom.
But how do you know when you're there?
Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us,
sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.