FORGIVE AND FORGET !!

we like to think that we are rational beings .
humane. conscientious. civilized. thoughtful .
but when things fall apart
even just a little ,
it becomes clear,
we’re no better than animals
we have opposable thumbs, we think, we walk erect, we speak, we dream
but deep down
were all still bruiting around in the primordial ooze.
biting, clawing, scratching out in existence in the cold dark world like the rest of the tree toads and sloths

forgive and forget,
that's what they say.
It's good advice but its not very practical.
when someone hurts us we want to hurt them back.
when someone wrongs us we want to be right.
without forgiveness old scores are never settled,
old wounds never heal,
and the mose we can hope for is that one day we will be lucky enought to forget .

In life only one thing is certain apart from death and taxes
no matter how hard you try,
no matter how good your intentions,
your going to make mistakes.
your going to hurt people,
your going to get hurt,
and if you ever want to recover theres really only one thing you can say
"I forgive you"

the truth is painful,
deep down nobody wants to hear it especially when it hits close to home.
Sometimes we tell the truth,
because the truth is all we have to give.
sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it outloud to really hear it for ourselves.
and sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves.
and sometimes we tell them because we owe them atleast that much

the thing about addiction is never ends well.
because eventually whatever it is that was getting us high stops feeling good,
and starts to hurt.
still,
they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom.
But how do you know when you're there?
Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us,
sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.